May Contain Blueberries

the sometimes journal of Jeremy Beker


Recent days have showed with clarity that my brain has limited stack space. I have been noticing that I am executing the mental equivalent of Linux’s Out of Memory killer. (You didn’t think you would get a post without geek references, did you?) Basically I find that I am culling things that I just don’t have enough mental energy to deal with at the moment.

The curious thing is that the disposition, good or bad, is irrelevant to hitting that mental limit. There are great things happening in my life right now (like getting married!) as well as less than positive things being worked on. I initially thought that somehow adding more good things going on would counteract the bad things, like matter and anti-matter, but it seems that the effects are purely additive. It is just more things to have to process.

So, my goal in the next few weeks is to try to resolve items so that I don’t feel like I have to ignore things which are important.